[16 Dec 2009|12:11am] _asyousleep Since when am I so anti-stability? It used to be all I ever wanted. The thought of set schedules, filled planners and life plans thrilled me. Now the thought of finishing the semester scares me. It brings me one unit closer to finishing grad school. To having to get my pahrmacists license within a year, or jump through hoops and take endless hours of continuing education if I don't. To having a stable career, in one location, with no 4 month long summer breaks to do whatever. Or go wherever. It's not a career where I can just move whenever I feel like it without having to get re-licensed. And for some reason that scares me? I love it, and it's what I ultimately want to do...but I guess I wish I took more time off for myself before I jumped into it all. It never used to be like me to want to wander and roam and whatnot, but the thought of having a routine makes me feel extremely suffocated right now. Never thought I'd hear those words come out of my mouth...how strange. Silver lining: 3 weeks of freedom starting tomorrow afternoon! Bring on the naps, endless tv on DVD, beach, shopping and family and friends. I looove December!!!! raw

i shook the hand of time and i knew [11 Dec 2009|04:41pm] _asyousleep when i was gone this summer, every time i saw something really pretty, or was on top of a gorgeous mountain, i would stop and think to myself that i should really soak it in, because come fall semester, i'd be longing for those moments. ..................true story. i'm turning 22 tomorrow...and there's a 60% chance of rain. omen? haha. i'll be halfway through finals in the afternoon, and drinking my afternoon into oblivion while i should be studying for my next two. oh well. i should soak up these moments...because come legitimate adulthood.....i'll be longing for these moments. next wednesday and my 3 week break from pharmacy school couldn't come sooner. raw

Dear Father Christmas, [10 Dec 2009|06:39pm] feliciahatesyou This is all I want for Christmas 1. sz 8 or 8.5 (shoes for work!) 2. I'm pretty simple. a pair of shoes, and a dvd. BAM MAKE IT HAPPEN SANTA, I KNOW YOU READ LJ raw

[09 Dec 2009|03:43pm] _belowthestars "What I will never forget is the deformities and disfigurements pictured: photos, as artless as mug shots, of elephantiasis, leprosy, gargantuan tumors, and other conditions that made the body seductively grotesque." Sounds like my childhood in a nutshell. When I was younger, I decided that a possible back up career if the doctor thing didn't work out would be a biology textbook illustrator. I'm so glad that we, as humans, have such fascinating bodies. I don't think I would have ever decided to become a doctor if we looked like slugs or something. I also don't think I will ever stop loving anatomy. Ever. I also think anatomy might be a big reason why I love art...nearly all of my final projects for my various art history classes have analyzed the portrayal of the human body or medical culture throughout the years. Diadoumenos, by Polykleitos. HELLO THESIS! Leonardo, of course by Rembrandt, my latest obsession. You can see a tumor on her left breast, and how it has metastasized to her lymph nodes 1 HEART♥raw

[07 Dec 2009|01:19am] feliciahatesyou I think I don't give a shit about boys anymore. not in a lesbian break through moment, but just...dont give a shit about them right now. they have just brought stress and confusion in my life. I just don't feel like dealing with it. I do like my new job though. also, when snuggie wearers raise the roof in their commercials. raw

[06 Dec 2009|01:55am] feliciahatesyou Tonight at work, a dude came in and kept taking our pamphlets or any type of papers and kept folding them into shapes. It was so odd..he just kept taking them throughout the night. One time he came to my area and asked for a pen, and I said "for what?" and he said "to draw dots" and then I asked "what do you need the paper for?" and he said "for a collage" but he kept throwing the paper out! So this older coworker Brian was next to me and said he can't be taking and wasting our paper like that. Then the dude walked away, and Brian told me if that dude takes more pamphlet to let him know. Then about 5 mins later, crazy dude walked out to smoke a cigarette, came back in took a pamphlet from the front desk, and Brian told him to leave the building. It was just so fucking weird, because this guy came into our establishment, didn't buy anything, didn't look at the track or arcade, but just took our paper and folded it. One girl asked him why he was doing it and he told her "folding them in patterns so they are less desirable to eat" WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT! I got home and googled "obsessive compulsive disorder paper folding" and different variations of that, but I can't find any information on it. raw

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