i found something in you heart,

midnight snack

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 05:19:59 GMT

every night i have been eating an umpteen amount of junk food until my eyes finally feel the weight of the previous day. tonight i attacked a stash of cool mint creme double stuff oreos but didn't feel like eating the green filling, what a waste. hopefully i'll kick this habit by next week. it's not fun falling asleep at 4 AM on a disgustingly full stomach and wake up the next day at 1 PM with half your day gone.

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 02:02:38 GMT

my brother is not as mellow as he appears

procrastinating.
somemore.

maybe i should start writing in this one more often.

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 00:51:28 GMT

i've spent an hour just staring at the english commentary.
way to be productive.

had more to this entry, it wasn't important.

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 18:30:26 GMT

sorry that i have forgotten about you, journal.
there isn't much to say.
i dont know how to deal with relationships anymore. it's like i got tramatized from before. im sorry, it might seem like im a horrible person.
im crazy over this head automatica song. it's a song i would totally dance to probably in my underwear GOODTIMES!

Beating hearts baby
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby)
Let me in your arms to feel
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart baby
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart baby

You
You want nothing to do with me
You
You want nothing to do with me
I
I don't know what to do with you
Cos you
Don't know what you do to me

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
The beating of your heart baby
The beating of your heart baby

Girl
You really got your hold on me
Girl
You really got your hold on me
Go
You gotta get away from me
Cos you
You want nothing to do with me

Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
The beating of your heart baby
The beating of your heart baby

Goodbye of you
Even out of you
Still I love all of you
I do yeah
In spite of you
Even out of you
Still I love all of you
I do well...

You
Want nothing to do with me
You
You want nothing to do with me

ILOVEYOUALL. have a good weekend. <3

gosh, i love myspace

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 17:31:58 GMT

so cute.

meet a slightly chubby, shaggy haired boy who likes to read, hug, sing, watch conan o'brien and isn't afraid to dance.

i can't wait to cut my hair, or the new tbs cd, or rilo kiley's new disc, or warped tour.
im broke.

Well, it’s love, it’s love, it’s love...
Make it hurt.

punch the stomach

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 03:30:56 GMT

last night i had a dream that a serial killer was coming after my family in the woods, that was some crazy shiut
5$ is not enough babysitting for 2 kids, someone tell that woman
im addicted to the ashlee simpson show and her song. as well as the simple life DOS
my doggie still has ticks and looks like a stuffed animal with his long fluffy hair.
cat in the hat is a funny movie, bigfish brings tears
must see saved, stepford wives, shrek 2 *shakes head*
THE NOTEBOOK---FRIDAY

i need a nap

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 21:09:45 GMT

today was atrocious, dreadful, appalling, horrific

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 01:27:46 GMT

100 MEXICANOS DIJERON !!!!!
the family fued version in espanol.
awesome show <3.
i spent an hour watching it and feel more educated, in a way...not really.
then decided to cut my bangs shorter cause they irked me til no end.
spent the night with my family. mom says it's nice to see my face rather than me being stuck in my room studying or doing something school related. she also says i make the bestest strawberry milkshakes. =)
fan makes no more noise.
skjdf93w8ru9jfs.
~~he smiled at me today~~
job hunting.
i love the weather!!!

and and pa-leash feel better
i <3333 you all/we'll make it through.

peeweelove05: ari, i have a dora the explorer backpack and she's on it and you know you look like her. so this morning in first hour i hugged it and said i love ari! in a funny voice it was great, just thought i'd let ya know

<3 and another.

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 21:23:31 GMT

i don't know what im doing this weekend.
i hope it's fun-filled.
love aree

why do all heartbreaks start with “we need to talk”? and recognizing love songs have become easier?

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 03:39:40 GMT

!!! THIS WAS MOSTLY FOR ME to get it out of my system, i should have done this earlier

the boy who wrote you love letters failed to tell you that the fairytale was going to end. when he said "i love you" it meant "i'll stick around until i find someone better" and when he said "i need you" it meant "i need your mouth on mine let's share oxygen because without the validation of your tongue touching mine this feels like nothing" and when he told you that you should love the beautiful things about yourself, he's speaking the truth but does he really know that or is just another line?

…searching his eyes for some reassurance, for the words she wishes he would say, how much it’s killing him, how much he misses her, but it’s not worth looking for.

9:30 blinks on her stereo clock, the daily late night phone call cease to commence and she knows it, but yet she stares at her phone hoping he changed his mind. The boy who once made her laugh with a simple gesture, who gave hugs and kisses, who looked at her in that “I can’t say in words how this moment feels, how you make me feel”, hasn’t. she knew that it wouldn’t last she had to know that the “you mean the world to me, I can’t stop thinking about you, the I wish we could run away together, the we were meant to be’s” were just lines, fed through a spoon and gulped down like nourishment. The familiarity has become a blur, should have’s, could have’s, would have’s took the front seat.He never meant to make you sad, honestly. Everything evokes a snapshot, line, or look relating to him, and it makes her angry for remembering.She wishes the future held more, but the present ruined it.

yo beeyatches ;;;

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 21:18:34 GMT

ya' know the whole deal
comment if you so desire to be added.
...and i'll think about it
<3

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 13:28:01 GMT

i need a hair cut !!!
and my permit.
im up too early today.
im thinking that i will make this whole journal FRIENDS ONLY.
okay, im done.

i really don't want to attend the b-ball game tonight. : /

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 21:40:21 GMT

PT. I
1) Using band names, spell out your name
At the drive-in
Rilo kiley
International noise conspiracy

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? Can’t say I have…one day maybe
3) What song makes you cry?….. I don’t think any songs make me cry?

4) What song makes you happy?
cry me a river-JT, what’s your fantasy- Ludacris, USA Nails-bloodbrothers, pictures of success- rilo kiley
PT. II

HEIGHT: 5’0-1 (hah! I just needed to add that extra 1 inch)
HAIR COLOR: black
EYE COLOR: brown
PIERCINGS: eyes
TATTOOS: want some

r i g h t n o w

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?: a shirt that I gave my brother but he out grew it so now I stole it back, some $6.99 khaki shorts…yea
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: it’s nice, I guess…still hot/warm. Normal Florida weather
HOW ARE YOU? I’m all right, good, bored at home so that’s why I am doing this…content. Don’t want to go back to school but I do miss seeing people.

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: hmm, I don’t really watch a lot of tv but I like will and grace, some shows on the Disney channel, the o.c.
BOOK: I haven’t read a book in a while except for school
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ice tea
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: bahama mama

h a v e y o u

RAN AWAY FROM HOME: I’ve always wanted to, but I’m a wuss. Plus knowing my parents if I did run away, when I go back home I would get a big beating instead of them being happy that I was home again.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: nope… people tempt me, but I resist.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yea, when my friends and I were bored in like 5th grade.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no…don’t see too many of them around these parts
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: skipped a class, does that count?
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: no silly.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: many. In middle school. Dumb. I was an Indian in kindergarten for a peter pan play.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeasm

r a n d o m

DO YOU HAVE A JOB: nope..
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: simon and garfunkel, blood brothers, modest mouse
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: pink
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: eating, little kids, hanging out with friends, those half awake half asleep late night phone calls that go on for hours
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I’m not quite sure, maybe moneen. Nothing to my liking is coming out right now.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: a month ago?
YOU GOT E-MAIL: last night
THING YOU PURCHASED: ressie’s pieces at the movies

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: I wouldn’t do it, nay
TEENAGE SMOKING: smoking is disturbing but people can do whatever they want to do to themselves.
SPICE GIRLS: I still know the words and can say it was part of my childhood.
DREAMS: always forget them even though I try hard not to…they can be interesting yet I can also wake up and be like “ewwww, why the fuck did I dream about that/that person..?” or “ahhhhhh, niiice” and smile or be all confuizzled.
he makes me happy
<3

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 15:26:05 GMT

:) 4 hours, not bad..
die phone die, but not right now.
chocolate, we shall see

i probably won't be on tonight so..
MERRY NEW YEAR !!
woah, a new year's starting, i wonder what this one will bring.

guilty pleasures of '03:
-Pharrell Williams, my future hubby
-JT, baby! cry me a river cannot get old
-digi cams
- tight pants.........on boys
-skirts
-the O.C.
-secret days
-Queer eye for the straight guy

i would say this year treated me good overall. <333love

so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 22:32:38 GMT

hot damn. it's ugly
made this journal for the soul purpose of decorating.
pathetic, i know
<3